Almost to trigger!

Things got off to a slow start. I wasn't responding well to 375IU of Gonal-F and 75IU of Menopur so my dosage got increased to 450IU of Gonal-F and 150IU of Menopur. Things looked much better on Saturday when I went in for monitoring. I kept the same dosage and went back this morning. Dr. M. said that this cycle may "span the seasons." But I'm getting there. Today is stim day 11. He expects me to trigger on either Tuesday or Wednesday, stim day 12 or 13.

I had to take the Real Deal, 3yo son, with me to the appointment this morning. I knew that he would be ok, but I hate taking a child with me to the infertility specialist. It almost seems disrespectful. Luckily, the waiting room was relatively empty and we didn't have to stay there very long. I think Dr. M. enjoyed meeting him, seeing as how he helped in his conception and all.

In other news, I alternate nights having dreams that I will either conceive triplets or that this cycle will be a bust. Right now I'm not terribly optimistic that this cycle will work. Don't ask me why. I don't know. I just haven't felt connected at all to this cycle. I don't know if it's the fact that I'm not at home, or the fact that this is my 4th cycle and it's kind of ho-hum, or what. I just don't have a good feeling about this cycle. On the other hand, I'm kind of terrified of transferring 3 embryos. My dreams about having triplets are very specific. Two of the embryos will take and one will split. Identical twin girls and a boy. I don't like how IVF takes all control out of the situation. Not that any conception is in our control, but typically, with an unmedicated conception, higher order multiples are rare and not something that is often thought about. But with IVF you have to balance the likelihood of pregnancy with the likelihood of higher order multiples. That's scary to me. Well, I guess is should be scary to anybody.

Ahh... I'm hormonal and overwhelmed. I think I'll go take a nap. If I end up with triplets, I should probably get as much sleep now as possible.