Update

Sorry it took me so long to get to this update. I wanted to have a "for sure" diagnosis before I posted, and that took much longer than I anticipated.

I went on Friday for my beta. The test that I took at home that morning was negative, so immediately upon leaving the lab, I called the doctor to tell them what I was expecting the results to be. The nurse said that she was sorry and that Dr. M. would call me later. Around lunch, Dr. M. called and apologized and told me how disappointed he was and that he knew I must be disappointed as well. He said that it would be unusual for a beta to come back with a positive result after a negative home pregnancy test that morning, but that it could happen. He was calling me from his cell phone and told me that if I hadn't heard from his office by the time I was supposed to take my progesterone injection that evening, to call him and he would find out what was going on. The week before, the lab didn't give his office the results until after 6pm, so we weren't necessarily expecting the results to be available until late afternoon or early evening.

Around 6:00, I still hadn't heard anything, so I decided to send Dr. M. a text. I didn't want to interrupt his dinner and figured that would be less intrusive. He sent me a text back saying that he would find out for me. At around 6:30 my phone rang. He told me that my beta was 24 and that 24 is low. Home pregnancy tests typically show up positive with a beta of 25, so that explained the negative test in the morning. He said that he has never seen a viable pregnancy in his practice with a beta beginning in the 20s, but that is can and does happen. He wanted me to go back to the lab for a repeat beta on Monday morning. They want to see a beta double within 48 to 72 hours. So at minimum, it needed to be 48 on Monday morning.

My mantra the entire weekend was, "Today I am pregnant. I am not going to worry about what the future may or may not hold because TODAY I am pregnant." Every time I started to get nervous or anxious, I repeated that to myself.

Monday morning came and I went back for the blood draw. Remarkably, Dr. M's office got the results before 3:00. Unfortunately, my beta was only 30. I was instructed to stop all my medications and to let nature take its course.

Dr. M. called me this morning to check on me and to apologize again. He said that we could do the frozen embryo transfer whenever we were ready and that there was no medical reason to take a cycle off. We would just need to repeat my beta to make sure that it has returned to zero before beginning any medication.

So now I'm waiting again. Today I am 4 weeks and 5 days pregnant. I'm waiting for nature to say otherwise. I'm waiting to begin again.