Sorry to leave you hanging...

but morning sickness is the real deal!

I went to my OB last Monday. I decided to be upfront with him and tell him that I was considering a home birth. I didn't expect him to be jumping up and down with excitement or anything like that, but I absolutely didn't expect the response that I got from him. He told me that I was "crazy to consider a home birth" due to my "situation." I'm not quite sure what "situation" he was referring to: the fact that this will be a VBAC, that I went into preterm labor last time, that I lost a baby. Who knows? I honestly don't even care to find out. I didn't ask because I was afraid that if I did I would break down in tears and I didn't want to give him that satisfaction. I mean, fine, if you don't support home birth, say so. If you don't support home birth for my "situation," say that. But do NOT, under any circumstances, say that your patient is "crazy." That's a very quick way to lose a patient permanently. Which, as a matter of fact, he did.

What gets me the most, is that I really respected this OB. I am shocked and appalled at the way I was treated last week. Oh well. I have an appointment with a midwife next Tuesday. I'm going to talk to her to see who her backup OB is and see if I can get an appointment with him/her.

I can't believe that I am still seething over this an entire week later.