Another Midwife Appointment

Maybe it will be my last one?

I lost my mucous plug this morning, so that's a good sign. Both of my due date buddies have had their babies (one two days ago and one this morning). Baby is really, really low and I'm ready.

My hemoglobin is back up which is great. Two weeks ago it was at 7.2 and today it was 10.3, so that's a HUGE improvement.

I'm ready to get this show on the road!

38 and a half weeks...

... and I'm ready. I'm tired of being short with Will. My patience has worn very thin. I just want to have this baby already. I shared a due date with two other people and one of them had her baby yesterday. My cousin, due 9 days after me, had her baby today. Is it my turn yet? I'm trying to be patient. I'm trying to be grateful that I'm still pregnant at over 38 weeks. I'm trying to remember how horrible NICU time is. But I just want to have this baby already.

Ok, ok, ok. I've been a blogging slacker. But after my birthday came Christmas and then we drove across the country for a week and I've been recovering ever since.

I'm currently 36 weeks and 3 days pregnant. Almost full term! I can't believe that we are so close to finally meeting the newest member of our family.

As big of a proponent of natural childbirth as I am, I am absolutely at the point in pregnancy where I can see how people would choose to be induced. I am ready to be done with pregnancy. My feet hurt, my hips hurt, my back hurts, I'm tired, I'm cranky. I'm ready to be done. However, I am so so very grateful that I will not have another delivery at 31 weeks. NICU time is not fun at all and I will be blessed if I never have to endure that again.

It's My Birthday!

I've never been pregnant on my birthday before. I kind of like it.

In other news, I had to break down and start taking Prevacid (a pregnancy category b)for my heartburn. NOTHING else was helping and I noticed that I wasn't eating or drinking properly, so I decided that the slight risk of taking a category b drug was better than the risk of not nourishing my baby properly. I've been taking it for four days now, and let me tell you, the difference is night and day. I feel so much better than I did before I started taking it. I'm properly hydrated. I have more energy because I'm eating again. Life is much, much happier.

I know I've said it multiple times before, but I am going to make a concerted effort to post more often. I asked for a journal for Christmas. I'd really like to start journaling a little something every day. I feel so much better when I write just a little, but man, it is so hard to find time with a very active 4 year old! I don't imagine that it will be any easier once newbaby gets here either. But beginning January 1, 2012, I am going to really try to either journal or blog once a day.

24 Weeks, 3 days

I had every intention of writing this post on Saturday, when I was 24 weeks, 0 days, but that just wasn't in the cards. 24 weeks is a big milestone: it's the age of viability. If baby were to be born today, he would have a decent chance of survival. That makes me feel good. Obviously, I would like baby to stay put for 16 more weeks or so, but just knowing that if the baby were to be born today that he would likely survive give me a little bit of security.

We interviewed doulas this weekend. One really wasn't a good fit at all and the other was AWESOME! I feel like we will hire her once our next paycheck hits. We had a third interview scheduled, but my due date just wasn't going to work with her family's schedule, so she backed out. I really respect her for doing that. There is one more doula that has been recommended and I am trying to decide if we will interview her or not.

I have my entire newborn stash of cloth diapers. Now just to wash them all and get them ready for new baby. I'm really excited about using cloth on an itty bitty since Will was about 18 months old or so before I started using cloth with him. I should probably take a picture of my stash and post it, but that seems like too much work right now.

Lack of sleep is an ongoing issue. Some nights I have trouble falling asleep from the get-go, usually due to heartburn or gas. Other nights I fall asleep the instant my head hits the pillow but have trouble getting back to sleep after getting up to go to the bathroom. I started using Hypnobabies a few days ago and I am really enjoying that. I think that has helped at least somewhat with my sleep. I'm hoping to see continued improvement the longer that I use it.

I go back to the midwife on Monday. I'm guessing that I may have one more monthly appointment after that and then switch to appointments every two weeks. That seems crazy to me! Things are getting close.

Another Midwife Appointment

I went back to the midwife again yesterday. It went really well. I'm up 4 pounds since last visit, so right on track for the 1 pound per week that I should be gaining at this point. My fundal height was right on track as well. This was the first appointment where she palpated the baby to find the position. That was really neat since that was never done during my last pregnancy. One of the pros of seeing a midwife instead of an OB this time around.

Thankfully, pregnancy is pretty boring right now. I'm still having some impressive heartburn and a fair amount of bloating in the evenings. But all in all, much less mentally and emotionally demanding than my first pregnancy.

Massive Update

I admit. I'm a delinquent blogger. I try, really I do, but life tends to get in the way of blogging about it. I'm ok with that as long as I get to do a few big updates now and then.

Let's see... where to start. My pregnancy is going along great! I am currently 18 weeks and 4 days. We had a little glitch several weeks ago though. My midwife called to inform me that while most of my blood work was perfectly normal, my hepatitis b test came back positive. Needless to say I was in shock! I haven't been engaging in any "risky behaviors" and haven't been exposed to anyone's blood. I was referred to an OB and was retested. After much stress and waiting, my repeat test came back negative (as I knew it had to) and my first test was determined to be a false positive. Whew! What a relief!

I had my anatomy scan a week ago. Everything looked great! No signs of any neural tube defects, large or small. And we are having another boy! Now I can start buying cute cloth diapers. I didn't start using cloth with Will until he was about 18 months old, so I don't have any newborn or small sized diapers. I have been having so much fun picking out the ones I'm going to use with the new baby.

Will turned 4 just over a week ago. He's still talking about the bounce house and loves telling people that he is "pour." I had to reschedule his well-child pediatrician appointment, so I don't have any stats to update right now. I do plan on talking to him about his speech though. He has trouble with several consonant sounds, especially blends. If it's normal and age appropriate, great! If not, I want to get him the help he needs. I've made a list of words that he consistently mispronounces and it's upwards of 25, and I'm not including "hard" word like "spaghetti." Anyway, his appointment is one week from today and I'm looking forward to seeing what our beloved pediatrician says.

First Midwife Appointment

I saw my midwife for the first time as a patient today. We interviewed her and her (now former partner) back in January and really liked her a lot. This visit was much different from my most recent visit with my (now former) OB. She took a thorough history, talked at length with us, listened and answered all the questions that we had. It was a very relaxing visit. My blood pressure typically runs right around 120/80 and today it was 102/70! Lowered blood pressure is a sure sign of calmness. It was just perfect all around.

We tried to hear the heartbeat on the Doppler, but it's still pretty early to be able to do that. I was able to hear it for a split second, but Kenneth didn't get to hear it at all. By the time I go back in four weeks, hearing the heartbeat shouldn't be a problem.

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Sorry to leave you hanging...

but morning sickness is the real deal!

I went to my OB last Monday. I decided to be upfront with him and tell him that I was considering a home birth. I didn't expect him to be jumping up and down with excitement or anything like that, but I absolutely didn't expect the response that I got from him. He told me that I was "crazy to consider a home birth" due to my "situation." I'm not quite sure what "situation" he was referring to: the fact that this will be a VBAC, that I went into preterm labor last time, that I lost a baby. Who knows? I honestly don't even care to find out. I didn't ask because I was afraid that if I did I would break down in tears and I didn't want to give him that satisfaction. I mean, fine, if you don't support home birth, say so. If you don't support home birth for my "situation," say that. But do NOT, under any circumstances, say that your patient is "crazy." That's a very quick way to lose a patient permanently. Which, as a matter of fact, he did.

What gets me the most, is that I really respected this OB. I am shocked and appalled at the way I was treated last week. Oh well. I have an appointment with a midwife next Tuesday. I'm going to talk to her to see who her backup OB is and see if I can get an appointment with him/her.

I can't believe that I am still seething over this an entire week later.

314!!!

Beta today was 314! My favorite phlebotomist drew my blood again today. She just grinned from ear to ear when she saw that I was back today. If the blood she had drawn on Saturday had been negative, there would have been no reason for me to be back this morning.

I feel relieved that my numbers were good today. I have to admit that I was at least mildly concerned that they wouldn't have doubled. Of course, my body was definitely telling me that my hCG was rising. It's just so hard to listen to that sometimes when my brain is being so negative.

I have an appointment with my OB on July 11 and will get an ultrasound then. Late this afternoon I called the midwives that I would like to use and left a message. I haven't heard back from them. I'm not concerned because it's a very small practice: two midwives and no office staff. They could have easily been attending a birth. I'll call again on Wednesday morning if I haven't heard from them by then.

Beta Day

I had blood drawn by my favorite phlebotomist this morning. I'm not kidding. I have a favorite person to poke my vein in my left arm. She is personable and funny and brightens my day. Of course, it helps that she's actually good at her job and doesn't leave me black and blue. She drew my blood at 8:00. And I waited... and waited... and waited some more. At 4:00 I couldn't take it any more, after all it was 5:00 on the other side of the state where my doctor is, and I called the after hours phone number. The answering service transferred me directly to the doctor. No waiting for him to call back at least. He told me to text him my phone number and he would call once he figured out what was going on.

So I waited some more.

An hour later I received the call. My beta hCG was 135! I am thrilled! I'm not sure if I blogged about my feelings of despair and "there is no way this cycle is going to work" but I had those feelings a lot the past week or so. I guess that's what happens when you're let down time and time again.

But I'm pregnant. With a really great first beta.

P.S. I don't think that any one really reads this blog, but if you do and you know me in real life, please don't tell anyone. We aren't telling "people" yet. Of course, here I am posting on the internet about it, but eh, I don't think anyone reads this anyway.

Negative Yesterday

Sorry I forgot to post yesterday.

Yesterday's test was negative. It was still on the early side to get a positive. Didn't test this morning, even though I wanted to. I think it'd the first time I've shown restraint when it comes to POAS. I guess I've learned something in 4 IVFs and 1 FET.

I'll test again in the morning.

Progestreone is EVIL!

I try really hard not to complain when I'm cycling. After all, I want to be pregnant, right? But those blasted PIO injections. First of all, they are literally a pain in the butt. An inch and a half, 25 gauge shot in one cheek or the other every night. You'd think that that would be the worst part, but you'd be wrong. The PIO leaves awful, painful welts too. Oh, and lets not forget the side effects of progesterone: bloating, breast tenderness, dizziness, drowsiness, dry mouth, fluid retention, headache, heartburn, irritability, nausea, tiredness, and vomiting. Do those sound at all familiar? Yep. That's right. Those are the exact same as the symptoms of pregnancy. It's enough to drive a wanna-be pregnant lady bonkers! I'm testing tomorrow. I can't handle the suspense and pseudo-pregnancy symptoms any longer.

Still Waiting

I went to Dollar Tree this afternoon and bought three tests. I'm hoping to make it until Tuesday (10dpo) to begin testing. There's really no sense in doing so any earlier than that. I figured I could test Tuesday, Thursday, and then one last time on Saturday before I go in for my beta. I wonder if those three tests will actually make it that long or not. I'll probably end up driving the 7.8 miles to the closest Dollar Tree to get more. Gah! It's so hard to wait.

Now We Wait

So I had my FET yesterday. Both the embryologist and my doctor were very pleased with the way the embryo looked after it thawed. I am really glad that we left the clinic in Memphis for this one. I haven't stepped foot in that building since mid-January and they all remembered details about us. The embryologist, the doctor and the nurse (and I think one of the receptionists) offered their condolences to us for losing DH's step dad. I just feel like they care there and don't see us as dollar signs when we walk through the door.

Anyway, the actual transfer went well. I didn't drink too much water, so I wasn't miserable. You have to have a full bladder so that it shows up well as a landmark for ultrasound guidance during the transfer. For my first two IVF cycles (when TTC the first time) I drank way too much water and was absolutely miserable. I've learned a lot in the three transfers since that time.

My progesterone level was great but my estrogen was on the low side so I'm supposed to start estrogen patches tonight in addition to the estrogen pills I am already taking.

My quantitative hcg test will be next Saturday. I'm trying to decide when I want to start testing at home. Today is the equivalent of 6 days after ovulation. I'm thinking I'm going to try to wait until Tuesday (equivalent to 10dpo). But I'm planning on buying tests from Dollar Tree tomorrow, so we'll see how long I last once they are in the house.

FET is scheduled

FETs are boring. That's all there is to it. Fresh IVF cycles are so much more exciting. All the monitoring appointments, and follicle counts, and measurements. Oh, and the extra hormones. Can't forget those! None of that happens with a FET. Even combining my canceled FET in April with this one, I have still stepped foot in the RE's office fewer times than I did with a single IVF cycle. FETs just don't make for good blogging material.

I went for my final bloodwork and ultrasound this morning. Everything was right where it should be. Transfer is scheduled for Thursday at 10:30am on the other end of the state.

In other news, I'm a bit sad. Another infertility blogger linked to a new-to-me blog. This blogger just lost her second set of twins at 21 weeks of pregnancy. Losing one baby was the hardest thing I have ever endured. I cannot even imagine losing four.

Derailed and Rescheduled

So the FET was originally scheduled for Thursday, April 28. My father in law died suddenly and unexpectedly on Tuesday, April 26. Needless to say, we postponed the FET in favor of being with family.

FET is rescheduled for June 16. Doing lupron injections now. First monitoring appointment will be on Tuesday, May 31.

Here we go again!

I'm gearing up for my very first frozen embryo transfer. The FET is tentatively scheduled for April 28. It's amazing how different a FET is from a fresh IVF cycle. I've really almost forgotten that I'm cycling. I've only been in for monitoring once and will only have to go in once more. A fresh cycle typically requires 6-8 monitoring appointments.

In other news since my last post, we painted the entire interior (that sounds funny when you say it out loud) of our house, put it on the market to rent, had a contract in less than 36 hours, and moved out of that house 5 days after that. We lived with my grandma for a week and a half and now have been in our new house (that we are renting from my mother-in-law) in the country for 2 weeks. So far I really enjoy being out of the hustle and bustle of the city. We are still close enough, though, that we can easily access anything that we could possibly need. We moved one county to the east of the one used to live in. Everyone that we know that lives here loves it and The Real Deal is having a blast exploring the 3 1/2 acres that he has to play outside.

I'm also getting ready for the March of Dimes March for Babies on April 30. Our family does this walk every year in honor of my son and in memory of his twin sister, who died soon after birth. If you would like to donate to the March of Dimes, you can do so by clicking here.